Today's fortune:Your love life will be happy and harmonious
aha i read this and laughed. and decided yes it will. because first off i am not going to just like anyone and i wont have one for a while lol. because i decided i have to know the person very well first or something like that. i'll get references like for a job hahaha and check up on them and their background and everything lol. anyways that was totally random!
ttyl! byee!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Sunday, June 17, 2007
found.
call it found
ahh yay! i have finally talked to my long lost friend. it was awesome. she has no idea, but she is someone i truly love and respect shes amazing. she's a really strong person, well maybe she isn't but she always seems collected... she has the ability to rebound quick, and shes the opposite of me...but also in many ways we are the same. i havent thought about her in lately but today i did. and well there she was. so im just hoping and praying that we can slowly but surely pick up where we left off and that we can and will be close again. but i also know things happen and people change. i think of everything she's been through then i look at my own life and think how can she just go on like that? she really truly is an amazing person. and if i had an ounce of her strength then everything would be and would have been different. i've missed her. oh well i wont get my hopes up too high but i hope that things will work out.
ahh yay! i have finally talked to my long lost friend. it was awesome. she has no idea, but she is someone i truly love and respect shes amazing. she's a really strong person, well maybe she isn't but she always seems collected... she has the ability to rebound quick, and shes the opposite of me...but also in many ways we are the same. i havent thought about her in lately but today i did. and well there she was. so im just hoping and praying that we can slowly but surely pick up where we left off and that we can and will be close again. but i also know things happen and people change. i think of everything she's been through then i look at my own life and think how can she just go on like that? she really truly is an amazing person. and if i had an ounce of her strength then everything would be and would have been different. i've missed her. oh well i wont get my hopes up too high but i hope that things will work out.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
can't sleep
its 12:43 am and i cannot sleep. because my head is filled with thoughts and i can't stop thinking.
so its finally tomorrow. 23 hours and 17 min left until i can say the days over. desperately looking forward to that and then i can say 'i did it'. and if you don't know what im talking about just ignore that.
so i realised im probably the most stubborn person ever. who refuses to admit anything, even if i know somethings true I will deny it.
the truth does weird things to people. people can often anticipate and fret the moment their secrets are revealed but after the initial worry wears off it can be a relief. well the worry is still there so its not a relief...yet.
in a bit of a weird situation now and i don't know what to do. i know what i have to do but its not what i want. i'll do it anyways...so i can one day reach the finish line.
its funny how we lie to ourselves and trick ourselves into believing things that are untrue. its weird how we believe we have control when in reality we are letting something else take over our lives and we have no control.
its truly bizzare.
secrets, lies, truth...
maybe i'll write another post later when my thoughts actually make some sense. nite bye...!
so its finally tomorrow. 23 hours and 17 min left until i can say the days over. desperately looking forward to that and then i can say 'i did it'. and if you don't know what im talking about just ignore that.
so i realised im probably the most stubborn person ever. who refuses to admit anything, even if i know somethings true I will deny it.
the truth does weird things to people. people can often anticipate and fret the moment their secrets are revealed but after the initial worry wears off it can be a relief. well the worry is still there so its not a relief...yet.
in a bit of a weird situation now and i don't know what to do. i know what i have to do but its not what i want. i'll do it anyways...so i can one day reach the finish line.
its funny how we lie to ourselves and trick ourselves into believing things that are untrue. its weird how we believe we have control when in reality we are letting something else take over our lives and we have no control.
its truly bizzare.
secrets, lies, truth...
maybe i'll write another post later when my thoughts actually make some sense. nite bye...!
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
The Notebook
I came across a bit of the Notebook on youtube. Such a good movie. I love Noah haha if you want to ignore the rest of this post do so but read the bolded parts they're the best.
Young Noah: It's not about following your heart and it's not about keeping your promises. It's about security.
Young Allie: What's that supposed to mean?
Young Noah: [yelling] Money. He's got a lot of money!
Young Allie: You smug bastard. I hate you for saying that.
Young Noah: You're bored Allie. You're bored and you know it. You wouldn't be here if you weren't.
Young Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch.
Young Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Young Allie: It's not that simple.
Young Noah: What... do... you... want? Whaddaya want?
Young Allie: I have to go now.
Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.
Young Noah: It's not about following your heart and it's not about keeping your promises. It's about security.
Young Allie: What's that supposed to mean?
Young Noah: [yelling] Money. He's got a lot of money!
Young Allie: You smug bastard. I hate you for saying that.
Young Noah: You're bored Allie. You're bored and you know it. You wouldn't be here if you weren't.
Young Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch.
Young Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Young Allie: It's not that simple.
Young Noah: What... do... you... want? Whaddaya want?
Young Allie: I have to go now.
Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.
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