I was listening to this song and it just seemed to make a lot of sense. I love it!
The chorus makes so much sense its a bit scary even. In retrospect things are so clear, they make so much sense.
We wonder how we could have ever been so confused. Or I do at least. What stupid choices we/I can make when our/my judgement is clouded.
Then her voice is just amazing. So anyways i love this song. thats all. night.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-FzcODuqXiQ
"Stupid" Sarah McLachlan
Night lift up the shades
Let in the brilliant light of morning
But steady there now
For I am weak and starving for mercy
Sleep has left me alone
To carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong
It's all I can do to hang onto keep me from falling
Into old familiar shoes
[Chorus]
How stupid could I be
A simpleton could see
That you're no good for me
But you're the only one I see
Love has made me a fool
It set me on fire and watched as I floundered
Unable to speak
Except to cry out and wait for your answer
But you come around in your time
Speaking of fabulous places
Create an oasis
Dries up as soon as you're gone
You leave me here burning
In this desert without you
[Chorus]
Everything changes
Everything falls apart
Can't stop to feel myself losing control
But deep in my senses I know
[Chorus]
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Sunday, June 24, 2007
hello
Today's fortune:Your love life will be happy and harmonious
aha i read this and laughed. and decided yes it will. because first off i am not going to just like anyone and i wont have one for a while lol. because i decided i have to know the person very well first or something like that. i'll get references like for a job hahaha and check up on them and their background and everything lol. anyways that was totally random!
ttyl! byee!
aha i read this and laughed. and decided yes it will. because first off i am not going to just like anyone and i wont have one for a while lol. because i decided i have to know the person very well first or something like that. i'll get references like for a job hahaha and check up on them and their background and everything lol. anyways that was totally random!
ttyl! byee!
Sunday, June 17, 2007
found.
call it found
ahh yay! i have finally talked to my long lost friend. it was awesome. she has no idea, but she is someone i truly love and respect shes amazing. she's a really strong person, well maybe she isn't but she always seems collected... she has the ability to rebound quick, and shes the opposite of me...but also in many ways we are the same. i havent thought about her in lately but today i did. and well there she was. so im just hoping and praying that we can slowly but surely pick up where we left off and that we can and will be close again. but i also know things happen and people change. i think of everything she's been through then i look at my own life and think how can she just go on like that? she really truly is an amazing person. and if i had an ounce of her strength then everything would be and would have been different. i've missed her. oh well i wont get my hopes up too high but i hope that things will work out.
ahh yay! i have finally talked to my long lost friend. it was awesome. she has no idea, but she is someone i truly love and respect shes amazing. she's a really strong person, well maybe she isn't but she always seems collected... she has the ability to rebound quick, and shes the opposite of me...but also in many ways we are the same. i havent thought about her in lately but today i did. and well there she was. so im just hoping and praying that we can slowly but surely pick up where we left off and that we can and will be close again. but i also know things happen and people change. i think of everything she's been through then i look at my own life and think how can she just go on like that? she really truly is an amazing person. and if i had an ounce of her strength then everything would be and would have been different. i've missed her. oh well i wont get my hopes up too high but i hope that things will work out.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
can't sleep
its 12:43 am and i cannot sleep. because my head is filled with thoughts and i can't stop thinking.
so its finally tomorrow. 23 hours and 17 min left until i can say the days over. desperately looking forward to that and then i can say 'i did it'. and if you don't know what im talking about just ignore that.
so i realised im probably the most stubborn person ever. who refuses to admit anything, even if i know somethings true I will deny it.
the truth does weird things to people. people can often anticipate and fret the moment their secrets are revealed but after the initial worry wears off it can be a relief. well the worry is still there so its not a relief...yet.
in a bit of a weird situation now and i don't know what to do. i know what i have to do but its not what i want. i'll do it anyways...so i can one day reach the finish line.
its funny how we lie to ourselves and trick ourselves into believing things that are untrue. its weird how we believe we have control when in reality we are letting something else take over our lives and we have no control.
its truly bizzare.
secrets, lies, truth...
maybe i'll write another post later when my thoughts actually make some sense. nite bye...!
so its finally tomorrow. 23 hours and 17 min left until i can say the days over. desperately looking forward to that and then i can say 'i did it'. and if you don't know what im talking about just ignore that.
so i realised im probably the most stubborn person ever. who refuses to admit anything, even if i know somethings true I will deny it.
the truth does weird things to people. people can often anticipate and fret the moment their secrets are revealed but after the initial worry wears off it can be a relief. well the worry is still there so its not a relief...yet.
in a bit of a weird situation now and i don't know what to do. i know what i have to do but its not what i want. i'll do it anyways...so i can one day reach the finish line.
its funny how we lie to ourselves and trick ourselves into believing things that are untrue. its weird how we believe we have control when in reality we are letting something else take over our lives and we have no control.
its truly bizzare.
secrets, lies, truth...
maybe i'll write another post later when my thoughts actually make some sense. nite bye...!
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
The Notebook
I came across a bit of the Notebook on youtube. Such a good movie. I love Noah haha if you want to ignore the rest of this post do so but read the bolded parts they're the best.
Young Noah: It's not about following your heart and it's not about keeping your promises. It's about security.
Young Allie: What's that supposed to mean?
Young Noah: [yelling] Money. He's got a lot of money!
Young Allie: You smug bastard. I hate you for saying that.
Young Noah: You're bored Allie. You're bored and you know it. You wouldn't be here if you weren't.
Young Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch.
Young Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Young Allie: It's not that simple.
Young Noah: What... do... you... want? Whaddaya want?
Young Allie: I have to go now.
Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.
Young Noah: It's not about following your heart and it's not about keeping your promises. It's about security.
Young Allie: What's that supposed to mean?
Young Noah: [yelling] Money. He's got a lot of money!
Young Allie: You smug bastard. I hate you for saying that.
Young Noah: You're bored Allie. You're bored and you know it. You wouldn't be here if you weren't.
Young Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch.
Young Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Young Allie: It's not that simple.
Young Noah: What... do... you... want? Whaddaya want?
Young Allie: I have to go now.
Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Quote
So I got this from a friend of mine and thought it was pretty cool. Thought I'd share it. Enjoy [hopefully lol.]
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat your right, forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it's be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
Saturday, May 5, 2007
stop looking back and start looking forward.
okay so i was talking to a friend of mine today and i have made a descision which i have said i will follow through with only like a gazillion times before. but this time i actually think i can do it. i hope. because the past is well the past u can't do anything about it. but the future. now thats pretty sweet. its full of endless possibilities. and things happen when you least expect it. so maybe if i stop looking for something to replace whats gone and just move on then something amazing will just come along and BOOM happen. so for a while i think its best if i just trust in God that whatever is happening He'll just deal with it and that i won't have to worry so much and work so hard to make sure everything's gonna be alright, and concentrate a bit more on myself, ya and basically stop stressing myself out trying to help everyone else. i think that's what i will do. yes i will. mhm. i will indeed. wish me luck cuz im definitely going to need it.
i think one of the reasons its so hard for people with addictions to stop something is because its what they're used to, u know? like they've kinda forgotten that there are other options and better ways to deal with things, because really what they're doing is hurting themselves, because they are so deep in it that they can't escape and they don't want to even because its like an escape. A distraction so they don't have to think about themselves. and i don't want to say i do that but i guess sometimes i do. i distract myself with something else because its easier to help someone else often times than to help yourself.
so im going to try this now. and im hoping it will work. ~Bye~
i think one of the reasons its so hard for people with addictions to stop something is because its what they're used to, u know? like they've kinda forgotten that there are other options and better ways to deal with things, because really what they're doing is hurting themselves, because they are so deep in it that they can't escape and they don't want to even because its like an escape. A distraction so they don't have to think about themselves. and i don't want to say i do that but i guess sometimes i do. i distract myself with something else because its easier to help someone else often times than to help yourself.
so im going to try this now. and im hoping it will work. ~Bye~
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